Today, Papa and I watched the World Cup, talked to his doctor, got our tube feeds, practiced walking with Praveen, and experienced a lighter chair. A wonderful young woman was with us and we took care of Papa together. She was truly a Godsend today!

God has helped us so much, but it is scary thinking about what this will look like long term. When I have to go back to work and no one in the house speaks Russian or can speak Vlad. Who will feed him mashed potatoes with fish when he says he is not hungry? I also don’t know how we will afford having a care giver long term. It is something I pray about a lot.

After being with Papa today, I came home, cooked dinner, and watched a little soccer. Then, I prayed. I get so sad missing the kids that all I want to do is get in bed and do nothing. But when I pray, I feel hope again, I feel revived again, and I still miss them so much, but I have cast my fears on the Lord, and I can rejoice in the goodness of God. Reading the Word – I need to do more of that versus putting the covers over myself and trying to detach from everything. This time when my kids are with their dad — I get to be with my earthly father and after 5:30, I get to seek God’s face, I get to breathe, I get to pray, and I get to explore the outside world. What a blessing for me when God can transform me into who He wants me to be.