I was thinking today how quickly things can totally change. But I wonder if they can change so quickly for the worse or should I say for the stretching and learning and bending and growing (groaning?), then maybe they can change for the better as well. Currently, things suck on multiple fronts, however I see at the very same time that those challenges are Forcing me and forcing the kids to respect God, respect life, and really appreciate things we completely took for granted. It’s been a humbling and difficult experience, that’s for sure. I was talking to someone I really respect today about facing reality. It was hard to discuss things that really break my heart — that the youngest is not going to school or soccer. But I also know that it is an inexpressible blessing that he wants to spend time together and learn together (huge contrast to the oldest). So, what am I complaining for? It just feels like something died within me — the hopes and dreams I had for him for this year. But if I can just pivot, just breathe through this new reality, then maybe, step-by-step, I can stop trying to force things and move like water with the current to see where God is taking us.