I will say it – the world’s worst faster here. I mean, not even from one meal, not from meat. I have such a hard time.

In a few weeks, Lent starts. I thought I was good. I can totally fast for a purpose! So I thought.

Today, God humbled me. I thought I was doing great because overall, I have been doing well staying away from gluten. But I tried to eat a simple dinner and two hours later, I had beef and chicken nachos with guacamole. How am I going to fast from meat during Lent? I know God’s grace is sufficient for me, a total sinner. You thought you were so great with gluten. Let me show you a little of your heart. God, please help me to live patiently, trusting you that you instituted fasting for a reason. Lord, you know I want to get closer to you. If it’s through fasting, please help me, Lord. If it’s not through fasting but through something else, give me the wisdom to see it. I want to be more like you, but I am not great at this. At all. I had such a wonderful day today. Thank you for your prayers- testing went well!! And so I really thought I could chill today and eat simply. To go to the gym, chill, read the Bible, and write. Instead, after the gym, I ate all the good things in my field of vision. God, I am unworthy of your love, yet you love me so much. Help me see me how you see me, with so much love and kindness. Help me be more like You.